Today is Saturday

Tracy will be here for a month give or take a few days.  The chemo will clean out his bone marrow so, he'll be given transfusions along with all kinds of meds to mediate the side effects of this virulent dose of hell.    Then 8 months of outpatient chemo and it's a 2 year process.  Tracy asked about the alternative: he would have a few months. I'm in shock; a deer in headlights.   My eyes are swollen shut & all I want to do is cry.   I went home after he was settled in to his room with a view about 2( they gave him his 5th bone marrow biopsy, put a PIC line in his arm, echo cardiogram, cat scans & so many blood draws I don't understand how he's still got any blood). I then packed a bag & decided to come back & spend the night with him.  He's in a private room and they brought in a sleeping chair for me.  i don't know how anyone sleeps in a hospital but they certainly try to tend to his every need.  Stanford is impressive!  We're blessed. They've answered every question even when we don't want to know the answer.  This morning the chemo starts. It's amazing how quickly they mobilized this effort.   He's surrounded by loving caring people who will help us thru this ordeal.  Tracy  wants to live and we're going to beat this damned disease.