Gini just sent me this poem and it kinda sums it all up for me:
Staring at the little dots in the sky
Wondering which one is you
Asking the same question, why?
Only answer I know is that you knew.
Sitting by the window, watching the rain fall
Never felt so cold.
Remembered the last story you told.
Hold on and be strong
Live your life, do your things
For it's in heaven I belong
Go on and live your dreams
In a song I still hear you
In a flower I still see you
But your bed space is empty
It's just your memory that comforts me.
Missing you is a rollercoaster ride
Emotions up and down
Always wishing you are by my side
But I'll hold on and I'll be strong
Will live my life, do my things
And promise to live our dreams.
Nicolene Jansen van Vuuren 2011