Thank you my friends and family... my last post was melancholy.. just plain sad... I have those days, hours, minutes where I can't seem to breathe for the loss of Tracy but then, Thursday and Friday happen.. and today I can write about it. I am very fortunate. Riley looks at me with those big brown eyes imploring me to get up and go and I hear Mom saying "just do it!" and I rouse my weary soul, tend to my eye, grab a banana and we're off to the beach...
the dolphins are dancing and our beach friends remark on the beauty of the sea and I am truly awake... Tracy embraced every moment.. he got the concept of the here and now... that's all we truly have... today... this moment...
writing as I listen to Barbra's duets, candles burning around T... eyes leaking, feeling the the truth of each and every song...
Each day I tackle a few of the many things on my 'to do' list.. or try to... so many details... yesterday, after my Riley walk with Judy; dropped my car off for an oil change. Marilyn picked me up...went to West Cliff and witnessed many whales playing, feeding... astounding... breaching... I'd missed them all summer and T brought them out to play...
Fixed the cracked screen of my iPhone; showed my listing on Maciel... thought about stopping somewhere for calamari but couldn't stand the idea of alone... gonna have to get over that one...
As I grasp the idea of not ever hearing T's voice again; the loss stifles my soul, my eyes leak; yet I know Riley needs me immediately to get out of bed and take him to the beach... he misses our T... the beach will heal us and T wants that too...
About Me
- AnneMarie
- Concerned Citizen and a Serial Entrepreneur wrapped in a progressive democratic soul longing for us all to get along.
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